Whatever you wish to be, that is your right. Permission is already granted to live your life as how you see fit. Having said that, the responsibility and accountability that you have are subjective matters that only you can answer to. Environmental situations on the other hand is a separate matter. If you can work with the current situation that you are in to achieve what you want, great. If not, look elsewhere. Do not use the confinements of the situation or location that you are in as an excuse to not walk your own path. Once you have done so, be ready to work very hard. It will not be a walk in the park. I guess such things rarely is. Do not be discouraged if you face the occasional challenges. That is all part of the journey.