Whatever it is that you want to have, is already there, at least in your mind. To go about it in the space of wanting does not get you closer to it, rather it builds an imaginary wall in your head that is impossible to get over. You see, to want simply means to not have. And not having affects the mind in some way or form that inhibits it from believing that it is possible. Regardless how many times you have spent affirming to yourself that you strongly believe that you can achieve it, until you step away from the space of wanting and enter into the space of having, you will not be able to achieve it.
You have it already. Just that you have not gotten access to it yet.